Only If

If I ever get a chance I would love to fall in love with someone who has never been in love.
It would be so easy to make him see things through my eyes because there would be no impression of past on his being.
It would be so easy to make him believe in love and make him stay in love.
It would be so easy to make him believe in me.
It would be so easy to let him touch any boundaries and never feel over the top or under it, even if he compare things.
Because for him it would be all-new, it would be all enough.
It would be so easy for him to shower everything he has without any hindrances or second thoughts.
It would be so easy for him to not be conscious in any situation, which reminds him of his past.
It would be so easy for him to see the world through my eyes.
It would be so easy for me to see the world through his eyes.
Because for him it would be all-new, it would be all enough.
It would be so easy to crowd his thoughts because he doesn't know any other aura, where he can get lost and reminisce.
It would be so easy to live with him in the present.
It would be so easy to make memories with him because he has no memories of before with anyone which can cloud him.
It would be so easy to be harsh and soft on him.
Because for him you would be his world and world is always one and never two.
Because for him it would be all-new, it would be all enough.

Uncertainity

Uncertainities need to dissolve.
A closed loop is what I seek.
If I talk I talk nonstop and if I stay quiet it stretches for an eternity.
Some people put you out of it.
Some people push you in more.
I find bliss in my people these days.
The need of having new company has vanished.
I need to connect with old souls.
I know.
I wish to be the good old self who found happiness in the pages of a new book.
I wish to be the storyteller again; the poet who had a universe in her head.
I need my old people so I can see my real reflection.
I don't crave to go back in time but to just recollect the memories.
Memories which are fading.
What happens in life is scary at times but is exciting.
Every day is a new struggle, a new rush, a new dream.
People judge, advice and speak.
But a few feel.
I wish to stick to those few.
Those who feel.
I want this 'What if' to end.
I want this 'What now' to end.
Ending is not the right word.
Maybe I need a comma that stretches for a long time.
A sentence is formed which I don't need to finish it in rush.

That Unwanted Long Distance

It is as fragile as a cherry petal. It is harsh on the heart and soft on the soul. The distance, the unwanted paradise of doom touches you.

Where you see people you love interacting, posting, being online yet be so far from you.

You are in touch, though it's a myth of another kind.

What keeps you together is a want. What keeps you together is the wish.

Otherwise there is nothing in between. No paradigms.
What you feel in a moment is gone the next. You will never feel that again for them, or you might,
But the moment is lost and also the intimacy.
The intimacy that was holding you strongly for a second, with your eyes closed and your eyes lost and your eyes seeing.
Seeing you both, together, back in the time, meeting for the first time, feeling the rush, feeling the calmness.
Those eyes at zenith yet fixed on you. The comfort and the end of time.
The first hugs you feel again now with empty arms. Those satisfy yet leave a thirst of lifetime.
Because never again are you going to feel the same intensity, it will be less or high but never the same. Because the moment is gone.
And you are alone feeling it and never disclosing it because you don't know how many times they feel the same.
You never ask and you never say because you wait.
And the wait is more beautiful then leaving them after you see them after three months.
And when you see them it seems you never left and when you leave it seems you never saw them.
You forget facial expressions but you never forget that sleeping face right next to you with hair clouding the eyes.
That soft movement of their body you feel when you keep a hand on them in their sleep just to be assured that you both are together in this moment.
The pain is gone and will return.
Because long distance is unwanted yet certain.

In Short #5

Sometimes all you need is a break.

Break from shambles.

Break from your outer self,

to heal the broken soul.

And breaks are fine.